Who are you?

Pretentious title, I know.  This isn't one of those, hello world, new age blog posts.  I was recently asked by one of the wisest people I have ever met, she asked me a simple question, about my identity and it got me thinking.  As many people around me know and not many people anywhere else know about me is a small fact.  I am a University graduate, I was studying to become a teacher.  The clever among you will note the past tense, was.  It is impart to the fact I have now graduated, but on the 1st May this year, I made one of the toughest and swiftest decisions in my life.  I decided that I wouldn't complete my course as a trainee teacher, I would not become a graduate teacher, but a graduate of Early Years Education Studies.  I have my degree, but not the Qualified Teacher Status which would allow me to teach in England.  The decision was swift, it was one I did not take lightly but it was one that will stay with me, for a long time.

So, when I met back up with my University Lecturer and she asked me to identify myself, ie. Student Teacher, Teacher, NQT Teacher, Graduate.  I was at a loss, for the first time in a long time, or ever in fact, I was a little speechless.  I suddenly did not know what I was anymore and at the time I joked and said ginger, but I really did not know.  I just assumed, always assumed that when I finished this course I would simply be a teacher, like it was the only end goal.  But it's only one of a number of options that have lain in front of me.

I guess this is where this blog steps in, I want to know what I am, and what I could be.  Like I said at the beginning of this, a bit pretentious that I seem the naive enough to assume by writing things down and putting it on the internet I am suddenly going to know what I want to do or what I can identify as.  But it's either this or a diary akin to Bridget Jones' but with less swear words because let's face it I'm never going to have a profound story like Anne Frank.

So, I'll round up for now.  I hope this makes sense and well, I hope that I can use this to my advantage to work out what I'm going to do in my life.  All I know for now, what I am sure of is simply, my name is Rebecca and I want a life less ordinary.